A Hidden Feeling Of Mine

Wat kind of feeling do i have???? There're just fake or wat? I was so doubtful bout them . Can't figure it out. I donno wat happen to me to have all those terrible feelings in my heart . It just happens this few days. It's like my feelings aren't control by myself. That wasn't great indeed but how could i express it? Till the day when i forget bout myself or the day when i doesn't even have any feelings?? I was confused. Besides than feelings , i could feel the coldness deep in my heart and i couldn't really comfirm wat kind of feelings is tht . Tht really makes me feels bad. I can just daydreaming with a blank mind. Wat is happening to me?? There's just something which i couldn't tell and it's a secret between me and myself. Even my bestfren won't know anything bout me. I can say tht i am different from my outlook or i just have different characters in myself. Am i silly ?? Sometimes i could be controlled by my dreams . I hope my dreams won't be my master . Sometimes i think tht my soul and my flesh had separated. My soul doesn't belongs to me . I donno wat am i doing now. My hapinness is some sort of short and it may be something which is fake... I feel lonely but not lonely without frens. It's a kind of feelings which maybe u couldn't understand. My mind is blur .. truly blur.
However thr's something which i can only keep in my heart and no one can get to know wat is tht. I wanted to tell but it's just complicated and i'm not brave enough or confidence enough to tell . Maybe it's the matter of trust. Maybe the bestfren isn't your bestfren which are supposed to be . I'm getting away and away from everyone i think. I wanna be myself , have my own choices , make my own decision but it's just hard. Something will pull me away from doing tht.Something is controlling me. I feel like a stranger walking apart . I was shattered with this kind of living . I wonder whether ppl knows me or understand me much ? Sometimes the true fren test in Friendster is just a kind of game . It can't judge whether u truly understands a person or not. Tht's just wat i think and i donno whether how everyones think about it. Sometimes i am just not myself . When i am sad , i just can't have my face lined and full of woe . I should controll myself . U would be incredibly vague but tht doesn't really mind. I cares about myself don't i ? But time travels really fast and i couldn't figure out wat is bothering me ... Maybe till one day i would realise it .

I broke it at a blow , i laid it cold , Crushed in my deep heart where it used lived . My heart dies inch by inch ; the time grows old , Grows old in which i grieve .

Hihi.... haha.. So long nvr update by blog liaw. This Amanda and Bin li write so many comments for wat. become a chat room tim.
Haizz...... I can see many spider web on my blog. haha....... a massive amount of spider web.. scary!!!!!!!!!
So boring ah..
Wat can i do ??????? there is something different which i can feel it... i think it's from myself..........
Lastly i have no time to read all those comments so pls don leave too much comments kk.. TY for ur co-operation.

Haizz.. Finally i figure out my username and pass for my blogger. So long nvr post anything. Besides this Sabrina and Jordan keep asking me to do so. So boring nowadays and i got flu.. a bad bad flu. My nose hurts... haha.. nth to write lol. I'm not going to write something about a pass few days aren't i ????????!!!!! I'm like telling a story and it will be very long lol. EXAMS is coming soon .. Oh dear . I still haven study yet . Busy with my project for PMR . Tired ahhhh@@@@@. Oh ya <<<<< ( the pic ) sab sab water found it on a website..It is a jewellery box and i need the pic for my KH project. I think tht is the nicest of all "maybe". However the pic up thr also nice lol. Haih. I'm talking nonsense...........cos nth to
say d.

bad bad Wilson

Haizz.. Wilson u r a photo maniac. Can u pls delete them. My pics is damn ugly ok.
Nvm... I am so so so so so tired. I am absent for tuition this morning becos i don hav transport and i thought teacher will pick me up. By the way , nth lo . My piano practical exam is coming soon and i am really lazy to practice then songs which is so boring for me. Can u imagine playing the same songs for about 2 months?????? Besides i have massive amount of things to do. Tonite still got choir practice again aiyo......... This Amos ask me a very weird question until me myself also not very sure how to answer.... He asked me whether Terence is handsome or not???? How am i going to answer him..... Tht is so hard. I might hurt ppl's feeling rite. Nth to post d.

A very busy and stress day..

I am some kind of stress today becos i need to finish my KH wood work. I beg teacher so tht he can let me finish it after school . At last i finish it but in a bad condition. Thank you to all of them for helping me. Anyway i am also in a bad luck . I hurt my hand.... (fingers) becos i accidentally touched the hot glue. Omg . It hurts so much. By the way it is ok now. Should have wrapped my hand with ice .
Lame lame Ngu Shien Howe. Post a comment and said tht my blog is lame. But i really donno how to put pic and audio clips on it . Maybe i'll try ltr. Haizz he just knw how to say but don wan to teach me.
A new thingy.....
haizzzzzz can u stop buying drinks for me. It makes me feel bad. I'm like wasting ur money. Sry for refusing to take the drinks. . . . . . . . .

See who is the top 5.. hehe

I was hurt by wat .... says. I felt a sudden cold deep inside my heart. From tht second onwards i started to ignore tht person. Now lets see who is the top 5 :

1) It goes to Wilson Lai. I really hates him. He keep bullying me and i think he is crazy. Get mad for no reason. I think his hobby is bullying ppl . I can't stand tht anymore. My patience have its limit. So don be too over.

2) Jordan Leong. He is kinda bad. Owes likes to say ppl . Actually i don really know why i hate him so much .

3) Lee Bin Li . He is just very horny... hehe.

4) Daniel Luke . He can be called the King of Criticism . I donno why he just like to criticise ppl . Tht's y i hate him .

5) Eugene Sim . He is very annoying and he is a maniac too . Kind of horny . Tht's all .

All listed above are those i dislike ........ congratulations to them . hahahaha

A boring day.......

It was really weird. Lee Bin Li.. He should be a talkative person but then today he was a lil weird. I think he loves her. I wanna confirm but then he don wan to tell the truth so i need to guess my self haha.. (crazy) I will know it one day so nevermind. I wanna stop all those rumours about me . Chat with this lil Jordan , only know how to find couples for me . I think he wants one. Who knows hehe.....